Create What?

Lovelies,

This month has been a little murky.

A little head under feet.

I've been swimming in thoughts. Every once in a while I'll surface and gasp, "Aha!" only to promptly drop under again.

Meaning this month I'm gradually figuring some things out.

It pertains, as so many of my sea journeys do, to my relationship with creativity.

I've mentioned before, a few years ago a lot changed for me. After a decade of compromised cognition due to neurological Lyme disease, I suddenly had my mind again. I could hold ideas long enough play with them. I could indulge my curiosities and challenge my capacities.

And I was wild with the joy of it. 

Simultaneously everyone and her sister started asking me to dance. I never imagined I'd co-write but when Narada Michael Walden suggested it I said YES! I never imagined I'd produce but when ten artists requested it I said YES! -- ten times. (I never imagined I'd spend a year WRITE writing, but when an opportunity that I promise I'll explain soon came my way, I said WHY YES!!)

It's been a thrill and a pleasure but more than anything I truly can't express the complicated joy of having my mind again after so much time away.

But this month has been asking for something more.

This month has said... And? This month has said, GRANTED creativity in ANY form is the Earth's most nourishing topsoil... But?

The question three years ago was: "Create?"

And my answer was: "Yes!"

The question pulling at my heels today is, "Create... what?"

I can't wait to answer.

I'm giving myself three years.

Rachel